I watched a reality show type TV programme a couple of weeks ago.There was a girl,19 years old,who seemed very confused.She was married but getting divorced.
Her husband said she occasionaly left home and went away,no contact during that time and then came back sometime later.They asked her what she was doing during the time she was away since she had no money on her.She said she slept at emergency departments of hospitals and sometimes when the weather was fine,in the parks.It was so heart breaking.And now that she was getting divorced,they asked her what she would do.She had a mother and her mother had a house but she didn’t want to go there for some reason.
The show was kind of a charity show and the hosts of the show contacted government officials about what could be done for her.They said first of all,they could provide accommodation for her at one of the women’s shelters and do all the other necessary things one by one.The hosts were happy and said “your life will change.The government is taking you under its generous wings.” She said “ok” and seemed happy.
But,three days later I heard on the show that she didn’t want to stay at the women’s shelter and left to an unknown destiny.The hosts were puzzled.Why on earth someone would do that?Well,I’ve heard many stories like that.And also,had an experience first hand so it is not something surprising to me anymore after all I’ve known about schizophrenia.Do I understand though? No,unfortunately.
Can anybody tell me what is the motive behind that? You have a chance to straighten out your life and you shove it aside.This must be more than self-sabotage.What is it really? Is it a desire for freedom no matter what? Is it rebellion? What is it?