We had a great few months, the Depakote seemed to be working on hubs violent outburst really well. Of course his bizarre thinking, hearing voices, and paranoia continued, as he refuses any other meds cuz he doesn’t think there’s anything wrong (he KNOWS he’s fine and he wishes I would know what he does and maybe I’ll live forever with him. Whatever. I’m not reacting to him anymore and it’s causing alot less strife at home. And his paranoia has increased alot (EVERYTHING is against him. He believes that everything and everybody in the world does everything specifically against him personally - like when we go to get gas. Gas prices r raised just for us. When we get gas, they r then lowered afterwards. We’re trying to buy a house right now. Everyone involved is out to rip him off - the realtor, the sellers, the inspectors, everyone. And the price is just for us. After we buy it, the price will drop. Its fdriving me nuts)
Anyway, this past week, his violent outburst r back, just out of the blue. I was sitting in my recliner (we’re temporarily living in our RV in our sons driveway while we look for a home to buy) on the laptop when he flew out of his chair and started yelling at me, saying super bizarre stuff about my “computer” (he believes everyone has a computer running them and they have either negative or positive programs, mostly negative) telling him what to do and a ton of other bizarre stuff I cant even remember now. Totally crazy stuff that made no sense. Then he went outside and my son and DIL went out to see what the commotion was and he started yelling at them (he usually only shows his outbursts to me). I didn’t react. At all. Normally I would argue with him, cry, try to rationalize. That never works. Not reacting worked better, nothing changed but it was over quicker. He did say he wanted to kill himself. I came super close to calling the police but then I thought "No, he has to work tomorrow and I don’t want to risk his job, as thats the only thing that keeps him semi-sane (when he works, he’s “normal”. Staying busy literally keeps him sane). I know thats a stupid reason to not call for help but I didn’t think he was t true risk. A couple of nites later, he lept out of bed at 2am, yelling about how the computer was making him old (thats a biggy for him, getting old and his computer was making him look old and wrinkled) and he yelled for about 20 mins and finally got in his car and took a drive for about 30 mins (I was worried sick the entire time) and came back much much better). He’s had smaller outbursts everyday. I’m trying to keep him even, giving him positve attention, trying to redirect his attention if I see he’s about ready to go off the deep end, not reacting if he does go off.
Every single day his bizarre thoughts and paranoia seem to get worse. And the Depakote isn’t working for that, at all. He refuses all other meds. His psych appt is the 17th nd he’ll be totally normal for it. I wish the anosognosia would allow a small window of time of understanding so that he would actually see whats happening and try a medicaion. But he thinks theres nothing wrong and theres something wrong with the rest of the world for nt believing in what he believes. I just dont get it.
Anyway, after that long novel, my actual ?: If it happens again, as I’m sure it will, how do I get him help (like hospitalization) without getting hi arrested? And if I call the police, and they come out, do they take his word or mine? If he threatens to kill himself and I call someone and they come out, if he tells them hes fine and I’m lying, do they take his work? Becuz if that happens, that will be World War 3 - if I call the police on him and he doesn’t get any help. I’m scared to call the police. I’m scared that #1 he’ll be arrested. I don’t want him arrested. and #2 he’ll lie and it will come back to me and it won’t be pretty to live with him aftter the police leave.
I appreciate all of ur knowledge. Hope everyone is doing well!