We need a miracle

I want to assure you that you are NOT a bad mother for wanting some life of your own. My parents took care of all my brothers needs for all of his schizophrenic life. He was diagnosed at 22 and is currently 57. After living with them for 3 years they got him an apartment and when he did work he attempted to pay for part of the rent. They wanted to have a life, which is exactly why they got him a place to live. My dad died 4 years ago and my mom is now 87! They NEVER let him live with them as long as they could continue to pay all his expenses. His disability covered part of his rent.
He would have destroyed their life, if he lived with them.