I’m in that place again of omg I love this man, then to the point of I need to run away cos I cant stand it no more. I have cried so much since I left my marriage for him. Ok here’s a little background…
Years ago I fell in love with someone else and because I was married with children I ended it. I did promise him one day I will find him.
Well years later I did find him and I left my marriage (kids grown up). I came up to Scotland from London and left everything. The first few weeks were obviously amazing and then the cracks started. We was arguing over the slightest thing and I stood screaming you’re making me feel like I’m going crazy!
After this row he sat me down and explained too me he has paranoid schizophrenia and it can be quite difficult at times for him. My middle son also shows signs of this illness and I’ve tried to help him but he is 19 and knows better. My partner has had it since he was 15 from being knocked down in a hit and run. He had loads of help bk then bit refuses to get help now. We argue and he manipulates everything and is very good at it. I love him because I know who is behind this illness and it destroys me to see him be this way. I’ve been tempted to run for the hills and never look back but then I’m the one he confided in and has noone else. He is his mums carer but I seem to be doing everything, from washing cleaning and even bathing his mum. Lost I’m pure lost right now, but then when we make up I’m so much in love again. So totally confused right now and thanks for the vent. Needed a lot.