Hi
I understand, believe it or not. But I am sick in my own way. I feel weak watching him suffer and not being able to help, to explain that it’s just brain chemicals, that he is a wonderful man. He hates he for the forced hospitalizations but it was that or jail. I have accepted that he will never know how hard I tried. If he could live with they symptoms without “choking” someone literally, well then it his life. I fear jail and without any insight I worry, useless as it is. Thank you for reminding me of the pain you and others feel. As a mother I wanted him to be relieved of that pain. But I’m not God. I’m a mess.
linda