This illness adds so many unwanted symptoms (the positive symptoms), but it also takes so much away (the negative symptoms).
Today, I’m grieving a negative symptom (cognitive impairment). Did this happen because my son was psychotic for a long enough period of time, and his brain was not “protected” by AP meds, and this caused brain trauma? Doctor #1 warned us that this could/would happen. Doctor #2 brushed this theory off, saying there was no hard research that suggested psychosis caused damage to the brain. Was that doctor just saying that so his new patient would trust him? Was he just saying that because his therapy program was being offered as an “alternative to meds”? I’ll never know, but this question will probably always haunt me.
But, If I could go back in time, oh how I wish I had listened to doc #1. I would’ve called the police so much earlier, so the meds would’ve been forced and started that much earlier. Perhaps the cognitive impairment could’ve been avoided? Maybe the impairment would’ve happened anyways, just due to the illness?
Will his brain heal, and cognitive function improve, now that he’s on AP drugs? I pray so.