so I’ll try to keep this brief yet detailed.
I need help with my friend/bandmate who may be suffering from what we think is schizophrenia. it all started about two weeks ago. he had eaten a weed brownie given to him by my bands manager, so we can trust him that it was not spiked with anything crazy. he started to act kind of weird, but I’ve been high with him many times before and it was nothing out of the ordinary, he was always sort of a lightweight with any mind altering substances. one beer and he’s drunk, one hit he’s high as a kite. then it started to get weird. he spun around in his chair yelling “please, god” over and over. and then stood up and started laughing. After that he got violent, and threw punches at us. He then threw his laptop through the wall and thats when we had to hold him down on the bed to prevent him from harming himself or anyone else. he started yelling “f*ck you” to everyone, including our singer’s mom when she walked into the room and asked him what was wrong. we called 911 and when the paramedics arrived he threw up and they took him to the emergency room. we were afraid that he may have tried some other drug, like i said, I’ve been high with him many times, and while he does get ridiculously high whenever we do, never have i seen anything like this before from him. his toxicology report came back with nothing but the weed in his system though, leading us to believe this was just a bad reaction to the weed he had. my manager ate some and did get high but nothing else, so we chalked it up as just another example of him being a lightweight. it may sound naive and almost irresponsible, but how could we think anything different?
everything had seemed to go back to normal and he was fine for a while, but on thursday, it happened again. this time completely sober.
to sum up the last part of my story, the next day he sat us all down and told us he knows its god talking to him. He thought to himself after the first incident that it may have been god but was doubting it. ill try to quote him as best as i can.
“i kept sitting there, thinking, 'this couldn’t be god talking to me” and i kept saying ‘if it is you god, do it again, prove it, show me its you.’ then i heard a knock on my door of my room and it was god."
he then went on to describe what god was telling him, once again this won’t be exact quotes but it’ll be as best as i can recall.
“you guys won’t believe me but I’m telling you, this is god talking to me. he’s shown me why we’re all here, the purpose of our existence, and thats to love each other. its not to make music or write songs or get with girls, its to love each other. its all just math.” i have no comprehension of the relationship he was trying to make to math, but I’m trying to show you some of the nonsensical things he was saying
"i now understand why those homeless guys are standing on the side of the road shouting to people about god and its because they had the same thing happen to them, theyve been shown things by god just like me. and for some reason god is telling me that Nolan (our drummer) will understand me the most, i don’t know why god is pointing out Nolan in particular but he is. I’m telling you guys I’m not crazy this really is happening to me, and I’m not scared, I’m happy, I’ve been shown the reason behind life"
there was a lot more, we sat there for about an hour listening to him but this is the most i can recall somewhat accurately. other than that rant, he’s a completely different person than what we are used to. he used to be a carefree, funny, fun loving guy, who at times could be annoying with how fun he could be, almost like a young puppy, always so playful. i remember him chasing me all around a venue up in seattle with a nerf gun, so much that i was scared of walking around corners for the fear that he’d shoot me. and on our first tour, where we had to cuddle together in the trunk of an suv because it was the only place to lay down and sleep during the 8 hour drive. these are things that this new persona that has taken over him would never do. whenever he’s not talking to us about what he’s hearing, its like he’s on autopilot, theres no smiles, no jokes, no playfulness, no dancing around, he’s just, there.
so after that he went to go meet with his pastor, and that was the last time i talked to him. It took so much for me to not take him straight to a hospital, but i didn’t know if that would be the right course of action.
the band and i strongly believe that this is schizophrenia, and we have no idea what our course of action should be, i don’t want to make him feel like we think he’s crazy. we want him to be helped. we’re afraid that things will get worse soon and the “god” that he’s hearing is going to tell him to do something to harm himself or others. i don’t want him to be that guy on the street yelling about god. i want the guy I’ve come to know and love back to the way he was. if anyone can say if they believe this is schizophrenia and what the best course of action would be, please do, any and all help is welcome. ill close out with any other information about him that i feel you may need to know
- hes 21 years old
- lived in san diego for his whole life up until about 2 months ago, he moved in with our - singer in laguna niguel, but since all this has gone back to stay in SD with his parents
- the only other disorder we are aware of is ADD or ADHD, I’m not sure if theres a difference but its one of those
- he’s in two full time bands, as well as a barista at starbucks, and in college, we considered it being a stress thing at first since he has so much on his plate
- pretty healthy eater, doesn’t frequently drink or smoke weed, no cigarettes. like i said, a pretty big lightweight when it came to the influence of alcohol or weed.
- fairly thin, definitely not overweight, on the shorter side, maybe 5’6 (not sure why this would be of importance, but, whatever)
- a pretty religious guy, i don’t think he was attending church frequently, but a strong christian belief even prior to this
one last thing worth mentioning. he told us that this is gods way of punishing him for his recent actions, he’s been drinking and getting high and having sex more often than before. he said he had been distancing himself from god, and this is gods way of punishing him. we found this part very strange. The previously mentioned Nolan said to him “if this was god, do you think he’d want you to say and do things that are causing extreme discomfort and worry to your loved ones? would god make you do these things?” and that was the one and only time he stopped and thought for a moment. almost as though he had been snapped out of it for a moment.
i think thats all i have to say. thank you in advance for reading my long winded story, and i appreciate all the help we can get during this time. any and all response are appreciated. please help