She’s schizophrenic, of course. She personally likes horror movies and lots of negative imagery. somehow she feels safe or something. at any rate, she watches those damned forensic files shows, and now she’s paranoid to get life insurance because she thinks someone will kill her for the money. We’re poor. I’m autistic and was in the foster system and no one ever taught me how to be an adult, they just expect me to be. I get $750 a month, and she gets like $1000, from money she put into social security from when she owned her own business and worked her butt off. So when she dies, I’ll have nothing. I won’t be able to show I make 3 times the rent, i’ll not be able to pay my bills, I’ll not be able to arrange much of anything for her memorial or whatever. So i’m realistically paranoid about being homeless and broke, and she’s unrealistically scared of being killed for some massive life insurance payout she’d never qualify for. I feel stuck.