A Prayer for Mothers Day

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A Mother’s Prayer for Mental Illness

As I stumble from my bed this morning, help me to remember to be gentle and kind.

My child’s mind is shredding into a million pieces. He lives in a constant state of atrocious fear. I can see it in his eyes.

Give him peace. Guide me as I hold him in my arms. Help me to know what to say. What to do. Fill my heart with healing love, understanding, and empathy.

Give me the strength of a thousand angels to hold back my tears. My heart is broken and a tidal wave of grief is overwhelming me with the need to cry.

Give me the strength to bear it long enough to keep it from disturbing my child. Help me find someone I can safely bring it to.

Help me answer my family’s questions with the same amount of compassion I would want for my self. Help me remember they are hurting too. This is an unwelcome assault on an entire family. My heart is not the only heart that is broken. We all need time and each other to heal.

As my journey becomes more and more isolative and lonely, remind me that the lack of involvement on the part of family and friends is not always because of the stigma and the ignorance. For many, it is because they are hurting too.

They have the privilege of turning to their own lives.
This is my family’s life now. I must deal with it whether I am hurting or not.

Send me your best physicians and healers. Give me presence of mind, as I walk through the exhaustion of my grief, to not settle for just any one no matter how tiresome the journey becomes.

Help me adjust to the idea, that although it appears my son is gone, there will be no goodbye. And that he is still inside somewhere waiting for us to find him.

Infuse the creative part of my mind with solution oriented thinking. Give me hope. Even if it is just a glimmer of hope. A mother can go for miles on just one tiny glimmer.

Let me see just a flicker of the sparkle of joy in his eyes.

Guide my hands, calm my mind, as I fill out the multitude of forms for services. Then help me do it again over and over. Provide me with the knowledge.

Lead me to the books I need to read, the organizations I need to connect with. As you work though the people in my life, help me to recognize those that are here to help. Help me trust the right ones.

Shine a light upon the right path. Give me the courage to speak my truth; to know my son’s truth. And to speak for him when he is unable to do it for himself.

Show me when to do for him what he is not capable of doing for himself. Help me to recognize the difference.

Help me to stand tall in the face of the stigma; to battle the discrimination with the mighty sword of a spiritual warrior. And to deflect the sting of blame and faultfinding from the ignorant and the cruel.

Preserve my love for my family. Shield my marriage with the wisdom of the love that brought us together.

Protect him from homelessness, loneliness, victimization, poverty, hunger, hopelessness, relapse, drugs, alcohol, suicide, cruelty and obscurity.

Lead us to the miracles of better medications, better funding, better services, safe and plentiful housing, meaningful employment, communities who care, enlightenment.

Help us to find some way to replace all the greed with humanitarian work and intrinsic reward again.

Most of all, give me the strength to deliver whatever I can to the work of unmasking the manmade ugliness of this disease and revealing the human and all of its suffering beneath.

Finally, when it is my time to leave my son behind, send a thousand angels to take my place

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Thanks so much Barbijhg.

Happy Mother’s Day to you and Happy Mother’s Day to all of us whose children won’t be able to say it.

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Oh Golly…
I often describe my feelings as grief over his death–except he keeps shoving it into my face, so that it is always new.

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Thank you for that beautiful prayer. Happy Mother day!

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Never heard from my son today. My son before he was sick would have taken me to lunch or give me flowers. I miss him so much. It breaks my heart. Not even a text.

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Thanks you Barbijhg.
this is really coming from a deep loving heart.
All of what you said in that paragraph apply to my continuous struggle and describe what I go through day after day.
Thanks for writing this.
Happy Mother’s day to you and all the mother on this website.

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Lmr, do y I know how much it hurts. can you call him . Do youknow where he is at?

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I cant call him because he has me blocked from his phone. I know where he lives too. He wants nothing to do with us because he says we abused him as a child. If he calls or texts it is never good.

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What a beautiful prayerthankyou for sharing :heart:️

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lmr,
how is your son supporting himself? food, shelter etc…

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Thank you for sharing your beautiful and heartfelt prayer.

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My son is on disability and food stamps. I am his rep payee and pay his bills,. He hates that though. He wants to have control of his money but he would blow the money. I send him a check weekly for spending money. Today is my birthday and no word from him again. I do miss him a lot. My old son that is, not the one present now who so mean.

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That was so beautiful. Thank you

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My son is always accusing me of stealing his money. I even showed him the monthly envelopes where it all goes but he just wants the full amount he said. I told him I couldn’t do that and I’m ready to let someone else take that on.

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My son accuses me of stealing his money too. He called SSA and has reported me for stealing. They haven’t done anything about his accusations. I can’t get anyone else to be the payee. There’s a company that wiil do it for a fee but that is a last resort. Once when he had a good day, he said I know you aren’t stealing my money I don’t know why I say those things.

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They had one of those companies here that act as a payee that did steal people’s money - the news showed a line of really old & visibly disabled people waiting outside a locked building. It was really sad.

Some of them said they had managed to save a little back money too, so some were afraid they had lost several thousand dollars.

I don’t know how it was resolved - but just wanted to mention that these people can be taken advantage of by an outside payee too.

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I totally relate as well. :sob:

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I would just like to say that I did not write that prayer. I found it and copied it. It did not have the author’s name so I have no idea who wrote it. It truly does say it all.

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Beautiful and heartbreaking. As we all are heartbroken for our sick loved ones. However they have no one other then us to help them and we have to, there is no other way. Prayer is great, it really is it works, but action with prayer is amazing and we also have the numbers, we are stronger as a group. Orthomolecular.org has the answers we have to initiate them here. We have to overcome the greed of the pharmaceutical companies. If we work together we can heal our loved ones not put it in remission for a season with poisonous medicines