Hi. I have been estranged from my Son for well over a decade. Almost 2. Even our interactions then, where really frowned upon by his Mother.
My career was made up of short bursts of work, and then times of sitting and waiting. I was a Professional Chauffeur. My clients would book me for anywhere from 8 to 72 hour. Blocks. It was very hard on me, but I also made my Ex-wife and family were very comfortable. But, I also sure that my children knew I loved them, and all of this was for them. I even spoke with my ex, and asked her if she wanted me to move into the office for a 9-5 job, which would not be as financially nice as what we had, or stay on the roads? She opted for me staying with driving.
We divorced in the Early 90’s.
Our first Son, whom I haven’t seen in well over a decade reached out to me. I was elated.
We chatted online only. His decision. Only to have him tell me 2 things. 1. Was “I love you Dad.” and 2. “I have schizophrenia.” I told my son, via our chat, that "I love you Son. And I will do what I can to be here for you. Just tell me what you need?
I need to add some other detail. On September 6th, 2001. I broke my back at work. It was an accident and I have been disabled every since. I just recently was moved into a disability complex.
My Son also gave me 2 pictures of my Granddaughter.
I honestly have no clue as to which way to jump, or start looking to understand and help my Son and Granddaughter.
A few months ago when I first got word of this, I went to a site, and was basically destroyed for not doing more. I have no idea what that was about. I am a very positive person. I try and see the Sun before the clouds.
If anyone here can help me start on a path, I will be so grateful. Thank you.