Just spent a few hours with my son and ended up having a deep conversation that lasted 3 hours. He came over for dinner, but wanted to go driving shortly after. He drove and did most of the talking, while I listened. So many details of his illness were revealed to me that I had not previously known. He spoke so clearly with details of how/when he thought it all started. It was as if he was talking about something he witnessed happening to someone else and not about himself. I’m so grateful that he has insight, and a deep level of understanding of what happened to him, but most importantly him realizing he is ill. It was 5 years ago when it all started, but it’s still very fresh for me. Horrible, scary time.
He seems to talk the most when he is driving. He has not talked this much in awhile.
I mentioned to him I could always tell when he was in mid psychosis because he never answers my texts or calls, and that it scared me every time. He said “mom, if I don’t answer you back right away, I may be in shower or doing something, but I usually answer you in an hour. You have to worry if I don’t answer you back within 24 hours”. This made me realize how in touch he really was with his condition.
There are so many things that can be a lot better, but for now, I’m just grateful he seems to be so acutely aware.