Ok, I’m feeling sorry that no one will help you with your project. So I’ll be brief here, and you can P.M. me if you need some extra.
What is it like to live with the disorder? Do you feel you are treated differently because of it? How So?
Part a) This disorder makes it very hard for me to read other people, make rational decisions, and it gets in the way of simple task that other’s take for granted.
part b) I am treated a little differently now because much of my history was spent in hospital. I don’t talk as well as I write so I do have a hard time communicating at work. The structure of my day is different.
What are your symptoms?
I’m undifferentiated SZ meaning I’ve got the mix of paranoid SZ and Disorganized Sz.
I have auditory, visual and tactile hallucinations. I get delusions. I get disorganized and loose track of simple tasks. I have false memories, intrusive thoughts, and I’m recovering from a long stint of deep negative symptoms that destroyed my motivation, my concentration, my memory, my cognitive abilities and kicked me into a deep depression.
When were you diagnosed and who decided to take you for your diagnosis?
I was officially diagnosed when I was 17. Though I was crumbling and falling apart long before then. I was in the middle of a deep psychotic episode and was taken in by the police when I was diagnosed. I was then court ordered hospitalized for a while while I stabilized.
Are some days worse than others? If so, what are the causes?
Yes, some days are worse then others. Usually it’s stress that amp’s up my head circus. But sometimes it’s just out of the blue, can’t pull myself together and can’t figure out why. But 75% of the time it’s hard core stress.
What have you done to cope with this disorder? (Therapy? Medication?-Please specify) What seemed to work best if anything? Medication to stabilize the brain chemistry and therapy to cope with the day to day stress and the act of living. I needed both. I still need both. I also need physical activity. I surf. So getting out in the middle of the ocean and having a chance to decompress from all the stimulus really helps my calm down.
What everyday things are harder because of this disorder? laundry, making toast, some times… driving. (that is when i grab my bus pass) keeping motivated to take care of myself and my apartment. Listening. I can’t listen to long lectures. I can’t focus enough to concentrate.
What was it like when you were first diagnosed?
I was in a high state mania and deep paranoia and anxiety. I was psychotic and at hospital I didn’t understand half of what was happening to me. When it really sank in, I still didn’t understand what that really meant. You see the worst of the worst on T.V. and stupid movies, and none of that was me. So I don’t think I believed the doc for a while.
Do you think the disorder is getting better worse or staying about the same?
I am recovering quickly. I hit a wall of stasis where I just couldn’t get better. My meds got changed up and BANG… I have a job I like, I have my own place, I’m back in college, I have a new girl friend, my family is healing and trusting me more. It was all a direct result of the med change and better therapy.
You have to understand, Meds can really effect us. The antipsychotics can actually mimic deep negative symptoms. There was a time I didn’t want to take meds, not because I didn’t want to get better, but they made me sicker then the illness it’s self.
Picture some of the drug commercials you see today… example… for allergies. They say say may cause blindness, vomiting, rash, kidney failure and death… but hey, you won’t have the sniffles any more… Really?
For me, some of the AP’s I was on just ruined me more then any psychosis I could have lived through. But I finally got a good med mix and my life turned around quickly due to that. I post on here a lot… so pick through and you can get a pretty complete picture just from what I’ve posted in the past as well.
Thank you for your time. Please state your initials age and sex as well.
I’m J.M. I’m 29 and I’m male.
Good luck on your homework