I’m having trouble understanding what is motivating this type of thinking.
It seem’s murphy’s law keeps interfering every time I think we are going to make it through. A week ago he went off his Olanzapine, cold turkey. It’s been a struggle but I have managed to keep alcohol out of the picture for now and he was managing. He was taking multi-vitamin, Omega 3 and even NAC.
Two days ago he decided to stop taking his Omega 3. Yesterday refused taking a multi-vitamin because he doesn’t want to have extra energy during the day.
I think part of this is from before his big break in Sept-Oct and his defiance was in high gear and he didn’t want to take medications that were going to make him want to be production while living with me. I think he tends to get confused when slipping and all of his psychotic experiences become like one.
I’m not pushing any of the supplements and letting him decide on his own to take or not take as if I push then he will become more defiant and not take just because I’m asking him too. Thankfully he is still taking his Invega although without another medication the dose isn’t high enough so now he is slipping.
As of yesterday he is going down hill. Laughing with his voices a lot more. Up and alert this morning at 5:30 which means he wasn’t in a deep sleep.
My question is does anyone have an idea of what motivates this type of self destruct thinking or behavior? I can get my mind around his voices and even most of his delusional thinking patterns but not statements like: I don’t want to be healthy. Unless the voices are telling him it’s poison etc and he doesn’t want to tell me that… What else could cause it?