My son as I have said before has been diagnosed with delusional disorder, well the letter from the hospital says this.
He has been on paliperidone depot now for 5 months, 150mg each month.
His anger, frustration etc have lessened, he is closer to us and doesnt seem to "blame" us much anymore, but he still does not accept he is ill.
He will say stuff like its all a fake, all a lie, they aren't even doctors, he hasnt been injected with anything YET etc etc. Its so frustrating. He has no motivation.
He went to college then university and has a degree, he graduated in 2014, well he didnt actually go to the graduation as he just didnt want to.
Anyway he struggles every day, he wont go out much, unless we are with him, he wont go back to the gym, he says "he has worked in the past" and has tried to get work, (yes over a year ago) Its like he has given up. Sometimes he is content to do nothing, I mean nothing and I feel he will expect his dad and I to look after him all his life (he is 25)
Its a struggle and its tiring living this life day in day out. I know I should be happy he is stable , I am really but its hard work trying to motivate him, or suggest something to do etc etc,
Right now he wont get a haircut, I know its not a big thing in the scheme of things, but it adds to the list of things he can't be bothered to do. It has a knock on effect on hubby and me, we are tired short tempered with each other. I see my husband change and get less and less patient with everyone and everything.
Anyway sorry to go on and on, I wish you all a happy peaceful healthy christmas x