He started hearing voices a little over 2 years ago now. 2018 was really rough. But slowly over the last two years, he’s improved and figured out ways to cope. He would think of a sentence and focus on it, trying to hear his own voice in his head, drowning out the other voices. It took awhile and didn’t always work at first, but now he can push them away more easily, even with just a light humming. I suppose it’s a form of meditation in a way.
He said for a long time he felt like he couldn’t hear his own true voice in his thoughts, and he felt meds (which he tried for very short times, like 3 weeks and 1 week) just made him feel like that but more so. Like for him they didn’t banish the voices, but just made him too lethargic to fight them.
I wouldn’t say he’s out of the woods, and I do feel like his moods and behaviors are a bit cyclical, but right now he’s in a good phase. His mood is upbeat, and he’s funny again. His sleep patterns are still pretty messed up and he doesn’t have much in the way of a social life. But then neither does anybody else right now.
As to whether he truly has schizophrenia or not - I’m really not sure. He obviously has something, and he has been in the hospital twice out of state, where they immediately diagnosed him with Sz, but I did feel it was more of a checklist sort of thing - you hear voices, therefore you have it. He went to a FEP program nearer home and they were less sure, finally diagnosing him with a less severe sort of psychotic disorder. I’ve come to believe that it’s all the same thing, but on a spectrum, like autism. Coincidentally (or not), both he and I believe he’s got Asperger’s, as well.
Weirdly, the ad that prompted this post is on right this minute, on MSNBC, ha ha.