Marisser, I am fairly new here as well but find this site a breath of relief as I don’t stop researching and no better then reading everyone else’s replies and questions as we all deal with pretty much same. Let me say this though Marisser, the loss of your son’s father is huge too, to your son. Motivation is something we strive in heck my son don’t even want me to get in the way, when I clean his mess in his room? He does it but not on a regular and I am kinda a clean freak but I even let that go to teach him. He now says Mom, kinda tired so I will clean up my clothes later ok and empty water bottles in recycle etc… the most important as hard as it is, is to not show your anger or frustration as to me it sets my son back and brings on issues. We all know and understand it is abilitating to is, I just always remember what it must be like for him. I just always assure my son, I am here, only thing I am having troubles with is marijuana as I know how bad it is, he even says I know Mom, it is good in the moment but not in long run. Also drinking alcohol is intense and so hard it is his escape and is so bad. I know this, I am working on it but can not DEMAND it as we all know it is a process. I just found the way we talk is high on there success. You see my son won’t take meds as had severe allergies to most worst being suicidal when never was suicidal as well as seizures? My son was 3 yrs episode free but just relapsed Sept 5th. I brought him back before and will again as I never give up. When I am not attending to my son, I research, reaearch, research. I watch vids of people living this terrible inhumane illness, foods, vitmins etc. Fish oil is huge Omega 3’s, vitamin B, also lithium oronate over counter just like what doc prescribe but no side effects but can’t get here in Canada also you have to watch as if on medication can’t mix. I also don’t like big pharma as they have no answers and just make concoction of cocktails when they themself don’t know about this Illness. Again, don’t take even vitmin if on meds unless talk to your doctor. Hang in there Momma it is a very trying time and is extremely over whelming we know. But please remember to stay calm, understanding in front of him and stay determined to win. Beat the crap out of these demons. This damn illness.