I’m keeping my fingers crossed that this is a step in the right direction.
My son finally agreed to try an ADHD med. I do question his motivation behind it as he has been pretty adamant that he doesn’t have ADHD… Then after doing some research on ADHD meds and I’m pretty sure coming across things like ‘Is Adderall speed?’, he has decided that he might have it… I know my son pretty well and he actually admitted to me yesterday that that was part of the motivation to wanting to try it.
Sometimes it’s not always why we do something but the end result that makes it worth it. His pdoc made it clear that the type of Adderall that he is prescribing is long acting, slow release and that it is a lot harder to abuse. Also if he abuses it then he won’t get a refill prescription. They are also in my possession as that is the terms of stimulants in my home. I get to monitor the taking of them, or the PACT Team does. I guess it’s a controlled substance and gets monitored pretty closely. I can’t pick up the prescription for him and he has to show ID each time and I think may only get 1 month at a time.
He took his first one last night. 10 mg. He has been talking about a ‘hole’ that he feels in his stomach. Sort of like a void of where his soul should be or where he holds it all together… I’m probably not explaining that very well. I guess it takes a lot of energy to try and fill the hole or keep it together but last night after taking the Adderall he felt that ease up.
I have been told this his pdoc is one of the best for adult ADHD and we discussed some of the symptoms that my son has that he has been calling anxiety etc and has had most of his life. So my son may not have started to take this med for the right reasons however I am hoping that the relief that he gets from not having this hole in his stomach, not experiencing anxiety that may be a result of being under stimulated, and having the want to do something other then play video games, will be enough to keep him on the right track.
We also got the go ahead to decrease his Clozapine another 50 as we have to be careful, just in case, the Adderall does not trigger psychosis. I’m hoping that he will find school today a lot easier with respect to concentration.