I have a 30 yr old son who is diabetic and has seizures (on disability). He has always had a “one off” personality, then about 2 years ago, he began a sharp decline. He became buried in the video game world. He became more and more isolated, angry and paranoid. He began to think that people were watching him through the cameras in his devices. Finally, he started having visual hallucinations and becoming upset that I could not see them. “Glowing white flowers” “Streaks of lightning”, etc. This progressed into a full grown delusion that he was to be the Savior of the world. In order to do this, he had to travel to the “Suicide Forest” in Japan and camp there so that he would take the heat that was going to scorch the earth, with him. It came to a head because he wanted me to pay for an airline ticket for him to go to Japan and became VERY ANGRY when I refused. He even became, somewhat physically threatening. Then he stopped taking his insulin and I had to call for an involuntary Baker Act.
He was FURIOUS with me and called me every name in the book. He railed against me to the people at the hospital. He stated he would never live with me again and stated that I only wanted to control him for selfish reasons…even insinuating that he was not really disabled but that I had made that up (as well as making up and exaggerating his delusions) in order to control his life.
Since he is an adult, and was not declared incompetent long term, I was never actually TOLD his diagnosis but the Dr mentioned schizophrenia. My Father had schizophrenia. He was there for 2 weeks and started on risperadol. For nearly the entire time, he swore that he hated me and would never live with me again. Then it seemed that things started to improve and they gave him a risperadol injection and he came home. He had already told them that he would not take any medication because he was not convinced he had any type of mental illness.
Fast forward a couple of years. While I had noticed some odd behaviors, irritability and anger, he stopped verbalizing his beliefs and delusions. I wondered if it was because they STOPPED or if it was because he was smart enough to know that no one would believe him so he just remained silent. Living with him is never easy, it is like walking on egg shells. He is intolerant of anyone disagreeing with him. He tends to be very bossy and to dare to not do something the exact way he said it should be done will bring on a world of anger. Just recently I noticed that he is back to the video game obsession. Spending much more time at it, sleeping during the day and staying up all night. On Saturday, he went on line and purchased a ticket to Japan. He spent $1500 on that ticket which left him $300. He told me his plan is to get to Tokyo, get a cab to take him to the Suicide Forest, walk into the forest without any food, supplies or shelter (insulin dependent diabetic) and stay there for 30 days. He says the forest will decide if he is meant to live or die. When I found out about this, I made an attempt to reason with him. I tried everything, the crying, the anger, the guilt…whatever might get him to give up on this. This only infuriated him and brought back his anger toward me.
Now, I have to figure out what I should do. He is 30 and he is high functioning (I guess)…but if he goes on this trip he is going to die. He has the ticket and the passport. I truly think that he is convinced that either he or the forest (or both) are possessed of magical powers. He seems to think that when he comes out of the forest “everything will be better”.
Because he has a concrete plan at this point,his mood is better than I have seen it in a long time. There is a selfish part of me that is dreading bringing on his hatred and his anger. I have had people tell me that I should just let him go because he is an adult…but if he is psychotic, that would be like murder. Please help! Any feedback. I am running out of time. His plane leave around 7/28/18