She looks at magazines and thinks they are us and she thinks I have five children with random made up names that she strongly believes. She gets angry and yells at people because of her paranoia but never physically hurts people. She had rare bouts with paranoia about people leaving her or abandonment issues when I was young. She spent a lot of money and put my dad into debt for a time causing issues during her depression then became manic on ssri.
She’s had psychotic depression. She’s very caring and sensitive. I think I have bipolar so would you call the bipolar that’s getting worse because of her poor insight and refusing help? What is the difference between that and schizophrenia they both look the same…and I’ve been told bipolar has a better prognosis on medication. Then again, the moods weren’t the underlying issue for me I think. And we did everything to keep mom happy. Maybe her psychosis is what made her sad not major depression or borderline.
Eventually she’s going to be forced into treatment or jail by the state because she’s yelled at too many people in public and we are helpless to take her to a hospital and they won’t take her without her consent until law steps in.
Does this mean I have schizophrenia too and does my mom sound like she had schizophrenia?
I ask because she reminds me of someone with a disassociating disorder. Like that movie about a woman who went to sleep and had another false life and family and was scared because she didn’t know which family was real and forgot her last life in the other one. In reality she didn’t even have any children or live on a ranch.
I had episodes but they were gradually subdued so I don’t live day to day with symptoms. I try to differentiate between my spiritual beliefs and what would be seen as psychotic thinking. I don’t have grandiose thoughts or think I’m special anymore.
Education about schizophrenia has helped me so much! But I also wanted so badly to get better. My mom doesn’t have that chance to want to get better because she has zero insight. So it’s not her fault it’s not like she wouldn’t want to heal she’s so damaged by her suffering and in constant distress. She was a normal happy kid like me and a great mother to us until we became teens my brother and I and I had my episode then she was strong for a long time until she just couldn’t hide her symptoms and they took her over.