My son has been fighting mental illness for the past 7 years. He’s 24 years old next month. Our lives have been a nightmare for the past 7 years. He’s been hospitalize so many times I lost count about a year ago. Pretty sure he is has both schizophrenic and bipolar. One good thing, his bipolar part is mostly manic episodes. He did a lot of drug when he was a teenager and if he has 20 extra bucks he tries to find some cocaine. He drinks alcohol everyday and yes I buy it for him. Every night around 5 PM I give him a few beers to get him through the nite. If I don’t he gets mean an nasty. So much has happened, no one would believe it. His dad and I love him very much and are doing what our heart tells us. Have we sent him away to get help, yes. Many times. The last time after a month they called me and told me I had to come get him because since he had been there he hadn’t showered and he had stop eating the previous week before. When he is home we have some control. We get him to take his medicine every night if he want his beers. I got him a job before Christmas but it only lasted 4 weeks and they let him go. They said it was because he couldn’t take any criticism. They said training was suppose to last 2 weeks and he was going on 4 weeks of training and was having a hard time still. They said he would zone out some time and just stare. All this being said, he really wants a job. He has not one friend. Hasn’t for a few years. The only texts he gets on his phone is from either myself, his dad or his two siblings. He use to be lovable. He doesn’t talk much anymore and he is always on the defensive. I am the cause of that. I spend almost 24/7 with him and I get crazy from being with his so much. God I love him but sometimes I just need some space from him. I don’t know how to stop criticizing everything he does. Example, he went to the corner store again and bummed money and came home with a cigar. I asked him where he got the money, he told me, (he’s honest to a fault), I told him he was embarrassing me again. We live in a small town. I told him everyone is always talking about him how he is always short money at the store and bums people. I know that I am part of the reason he can’t take any criticism from anyone. How do I except him for who he is!? I just needed to vent. Actually cry. So much more but that’s for another day. Who ever reads this, thanks for listening.
@Robin - Can you get out and go to some classes during the day or maybe a part-time job? I couldn’t imagine spending all my time with anyone. I don’t spend any time with my son as she isolates and is now apparently doing some drugs and I’m still overwhelmed with the situation. The bumming money must be really frustrating for you (esp. in a small town). Sorry you are having a hard time. This past week has been my worst. It involved the police and upcoming court time - which is conflicting with a planned trip to HI. (super annoying), but I’m still hoping it will work.
From what I’ve read and what I’ve also experienced, criticism is one of the triggers that brings on psychosis. It’s so predictable with my own son. When he’s being a total jerk, I have to stop myself and remove myself from his presence, so I don’t escalate things. You didn’t cause this and you can’t fix it. You are not the reason he can’t handle criticism. That’s from his illness. Do not beat yourself up about losing control. We all do. This is an extremely difficult illness to deal with.
Stay with us. Talk. Vent. I think it’ll help you.
My family member begged for food, clothing, money. In a small town. And refused to accept these things from us. That was a few years ago and it was bewildering and upsetting.
Im dealling with same situation with my 23 year son. is very dificut. but please dont give him alcohol. that dont help. he medication wouldnt work the way it should. Let hope for a better future.