Hi everyone, I’m new to this site. My son is 26, and has been suffering with mental illness for many many years. 5 yrs ago, my son survived an extremely violent suicide attempt, he leapt in front of a car, was hit at 45mph, and was left with traumatic brain injury in addition to what we then thought was bipolar disorder.
The past 5 yrs have been fraught with many many psychiatric hospitalizations, and much pain and suffering by not only my dear son, but by the entire family. We thought in the past year things were finally beginning to settle down, my son had housing in a disabled mentally ill apartment complex, was on disability and received food stamps. He had not been able to work at a ‘real’ job for several years, but has always tried to do something such as mowing lawns, yard work, etc…
2 months ago he was picked up by the police completely psychotic, and hospitalized. Apparently he had abused adderall and had become psychotic. He has used pot, and many many other drugs, including heroin over the last 5 yrs. he was released from hospital after only 5 days, and without an antipsychotic, because according to them, his psychosis was caused by the adderall.
He has not improved at all. He is still delusional, and terribly paranoid. His private doc has tried to get him on an antipsychotic, Abilify, but he will not take it consistently, and is now stopping it altogether, as he blames it for making him psychotic. Since I can not talk to the doc, I do not know what all is going on, but my son tells me she ‘thinks’ he is schizophrenic. Everything fits, and schizophrenia has been the DX that I have suspected for many years.
He holds his head, and screams in agony. He can not sleep. He believes he is receiving messages thru his phone telling him that danger lurks everywhere. He now believes that all the people in his apt complex hate him, and are out to get him. (This is so sad, because they actually love him so much!) he believes the police are going to kill him. He believes drug dealers are everywhere and are going to kill him. He believes he lives in an alternate universe. He will not join our family if all of us are under one roof, because he believes something terrible will happen if we are all under one roof at the same time. He believes he knows everything, all the secrets of the universe. He sometimes speaks in word salad.
He has given up his EBT card, because he believes the govt uses it to track his movements. He wants to leave his apt and travel.
We have always been close, and I have been the only one he has ever completely confided in, but now he has decided he hates me, and I am the cause of all of his problems.
Much more to say, but this is all I have time for today.
My heart is so very broken that I can not help him.