This is just a rant = please ignore if that bothers you.
The hospital doctor puts my son on Invega shots plus supplemental Invega pills.
The outpatient doctors take him off the pills - even though the f’ing shot continues to give out on him right at or before the 3-week mark - every single month that he’s been on it. Now, that’s 4 months in a row.
I’ve explained it verbally, I’ve written it down on a timeline, I’ve given him the pills and demonstrated how good he could be.
Still, they insist on taking him off. I get their reasons - they want him to be on the shot only because he is non-compliant on the pills. Only ask in a PM how I get him to take them. And, they don’t want to overmedicate him and have him refuse treatment.
I get that. I want him on only the shot too, but if reality is showing us that it’s not enough or it won’t last enough, it doesn’t really matter what anyone wants.
So, last Thursday, they take him off the pills. It was day 18 into his previous shot. His sleeping was starting to drop, but he was only talking about mild delusions now & then, he wasn’t paranoid, he wasn’t hallucinating, he wasn’t having any bizarre behavior.
Today is Tuesday. That’s only 5 days later and day 23 into his previous shot. He hasn’t slept for at least 48 hours, but I suspect it’s more like 72 or maybe more. He alternates between crying and laughing, from saying he’s Jesus to saying he’s the Grim Reaper, people are now coming onto his computer screen instead of the TV to talk to him, and he can do astrol projection and that’s how he’s psychic.
They called in something to help him sleep yesterday - didn’t do a f’ing thing. Not that I expected it to, but I’m such a dummy I hoped it would.
So, I’ve already cried today. Wouldn’t have, but couldn’t control myself when I left a message on the nurse’s voicemail. But, what I really want to do is scream - Give him the #!@($&*(&@#@)() meds he needs - that you see have worked - he was not having side effects when you saw him - HE IS NOT AN EXPERIMENT!!!
Don’t leave him stuck in a nightmare where he has visions of people having terrible things happen to them and he thinks he’s responsible. Cancel the screaming part - I want to smash things and hit people and rage against the world … it’s not fair & not right, and now I’m crying again.