Hi again everyone.
I just really need to say this in a community that I know will understand.
Last night my Schizoaffective SO came home with a tattoo. A creepy tattoo… of a possessed looking skull with a broken tooth, glowing eyes, and its brain being abducted by a spaceship with the words “losing my mind” underneath. And it’s pretty large on her upper arm where I will always see it.
As an artist I’m relieved that the image itself is decent quality, but it’s so scary that i could seriously get nightmares if I see it before bed. I’m not big at all on tattoos (for a lot of personal reasons). She and I have talked about this for years and I always tell her if she’s getting one to make it sentimental at least.
This isn’t sentimental though, it’s only representing her disorder and I can see it making her more depressed from it not less.
I know there’s nothing I can do about it now, but has anyone else experienced this sort of thing with their partner? (Please don’t say it’s not as bad as other impulses because I can garuntee she’s done everything else there is to do).
Another impulse is her considering breaking up with me. I say impulse because yesterday she was confused why I was upset and acted like it never happened (not dissociation, I know how to tell when it’s that). This may all not matter anymore if she decides to go through with it.