@kajlang, I know it doesn’t seem like it now, but the best thing that can happen to your son is being picked up by authorities where they will hopefully take him to the hospital, and where hopefully the medical staff will see how ill he really is and admit him.
My son left on foot 6 years ago, didn’t come home for 2 days. Police found him sleeping on a hot car (this was in June), with his face down on the hood of the car. He still has a scar on his cheek to this day from the burn. The police found him, and they did the right thing. They didn’t bring him home, they didn’t take him to jail, they took him to the hospital. Hospital staff called me that night to ask if I suspected my son had been using drugs. I said absolutely not and that it was a mental issue, and that he had not been well for years, and that I had been trying to get him into a hospital or a doctor for an evaluation/meds. They said they could not tell me anything because of HIPPA laws, but that my information to them was very helpful to determine the next course of action. I did reach out to them the next day, and I asked if it was drug related, all they said was, “no, you were correct. No drugs found in his system”.
From there he was admitted to a long term psychiatric ward and stayed for 3-4 months where he was evaluated and where they found the right combo of meds for him.
When I visited him in the beginning he looked at me with hatred and hostility and anger. As time went on, the longer he stayed, the softer he became.
He came out of the hospital a different person (in a good way).
We have had a few major setbacks since that first time, where he ended up back in the hospital again several times, mostly because he decided to cold turkey and stop the meds. The right med is everything.
Today he realizes he cannot just cold turkey the meds, and he also realizes he needs them. Very thankful that he knows this. It took a lot of suffering on his part I think to make him realize. My son went thru hell, as I’m sure some of the other sz loved ones on here.
Please know that your son being picked up and the police hopefully doing the right thing and taking him to the hospital and not jail is the best thing that can happen to your son. With the right meds, you will see your old son again.
Praying for his safety and him getting the help he needs.