Does anyone else just break down and cry uncontrollably at the most unexpected places / times when you think of your MI loved one? It happened to me tonight while grocery shopping. Something I saw reminded me of my son when he was a toddler. The tears just flowed as people looked @ me strangely. And to be honest, I really didn’t care. Let them think what they want, let them think I’m a weirdo.
This also happens when someone asks about my son or mentions his name. This is especially true when I run into parents of my sons former friends from school. This seems to hurt the most. All I can do is mumble that he is ok. I never ask them how their son/daughter is doing. I guess I don’t want to hear or know. It’s already beyond sad enough.
I’m not exactly new to this, he was diagnosed 4 years ago when he turned 20. I don’t believe I will ever get “used to this” nor will the intensity of my sadness diminish. I just handle it better on certain days, that’s all.