I'll apologize for that. I think I was pretty blunt & I try to not be that way online, although it's my nature to be that way.
I didn't mean to make you feel attacked, or offended, or anything else.
We're in crisis mode here, I'm working on very little sleep (my son is on an awake 48 hour, asleep 4 hour cycle that takes him into a deep, deep psychosis), and I just shouldn't have posted at all. That's not an excuse, but an explanation.
I saw you going through some of the things I went through in the beginning & remembered that the faster I toughened up, the easier it got for me & the better it got for my son. It's like he has no emotional skin, so him picking up on my emotions on top of his was not good. Did that mean I had to give up or hide some of my human emotions? In a way, yes it did. This illness changes them, and if he continues to live with you, it will probably change you in some ways as well. I still get very sad over the situation at times, I get angry a lot, but I had to give up any personal hurt or anger over my son's words or behavior a long time ago - for both our sakes.
When you talk about your son exploding like that, we've all been there and been just as shocked.
As you can see, I'm blunt & direct, and I can say the wrong thing all the time. With my son, I've had to learn to say much less than I want, ask less questions than I want, confront less than I want, I just have to take it all way down.
Sorry for the ramble, but that's the best apology I have today since I'm working on less sleep than I like. For what it's worth, it was sincere. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, and I'm very sorry that I did.