The last couple of weeks has been very challenging for me and today my daughter went to the hospital. She took an overdose of pills and called the police and mental health emergency line on her own. I felt too upset and angry with her to deal with her drama.
My daughter has been acting up the last few weeks with delusions, maybe hallucinations, anger and paranoia. Part of me feels resentful and angry with her. I ask myself why doesn’t she want to grow up and why is she still attached to my aprons strings.
So this evening I’m working on distracting myself. It’s around 10:30PM, dark and raining so I can’t take a walk which is my usual way of dealing with stress. I’m doing some deep and slow breathing and that helps a lot. I’m sharing this all with you and that also helps and after visiting this forum I will probably read. I’m 20% into this very engrossing novel.
Yes, I’ve been dealing with my daughter’s illness for about 17 years but I still have my bad days. Yes, I know it’s not her fault she has a mental illness and I feel a great deal of empathy for my daughter that she’s dealing with this on a daily basis. I can only imagine what that feels like and as her mother at times I think why can’t I just let her go and let her make her own mistakes and deal with the consequences. There are times I want to toss her out on the street but I can’t do it plus she has a couple of great kids and I would never ever want to hurt them in any way. It’s tough.
What do you do to distract and calm yourself. I’d love to hear from you on your go to stress reducer.