^ That quote. Does it mean loving your relationship for what it is?
Pretty close. But I think what Krishnamurti had in mind was that life is nothing but relationship to everything that happens within, to and around us. And that being with all that, being in direct, sensory contact with it ā instead of stuck in our heads thinking about it ā is what love is, regardless of what the object of that contact is.
Most of us have experienced it with a favorite pet. Very few people I know have really been there with a ābeloved.ā Our filters get in the way as soon as the bloom is on ā let alone off ā the rose.
Well though we are not in relationship anymore I will visit her next month just to check on her and iām very excited 
Sort of a living in the moment and looking closely at a person for who they are and loving them for that instead of what we want to think theyāre like?
I wish i knew. I ask my girlfreind why she would put up with me and get this close, bit the most i can get is that she loves me and wants to take care of me. One time i told her i donāt get why sheās with me and she told me, āWell I dont really get it either so at least weāre on the same page!ā I dont kbow why but that resonated with me and brought me alot of confidence, and made it me feelā¦normal.
I really like this subjectā¦ It made me thinkā¦ Made me feel good.
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Or require that they be to suit our idealisms, values and requirements.
Probably the best way I know to get hip to oneās requirements:
I guess I have the same question.
you are awesome! My husband was missing fir a month. I can relate.
My husband and I have been married 22 years-he was diagnosed after 12 years, but I knew there was something going on even before we got married. I thought it whatever it was-could be āfixedā. Iāve known now for many years it wonāt be-in my husbandās case itās fixed temporarily when heās on his meds, but he gets off and things get scary/sad mostly because of how he acts up in public or refuses to see family/friends, trips have to cancelled, plans changed. But I love him and I know he is suffering (ok, Iām suffering too) and I know he didnāt ask to be somebody yelling obsenities in McDonalds or telling me weāre not going to my dadās memorial service because he canāt be around people and the voices are saying bad things to him (heās also toally blind-that was after we married). I am not a martyr or a saint-I just want to be there for him, try and make life as smooth as possible. And hope he goes back on his meds. I think it comes down to āis my life better or worse with him in my lifeā and as always for me, itās better. Even on the days Iām reliving the bad times. Heās a good man.
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I love myself and thatās the best thing any person can do, especially if you are mentally ill. Recently Iāve been interested in the common themes that are going on in my subconscious mind so that I can master myself. And doing so takes alot of patience, self discovery, and problem solving the all-or-nothings I love you all and the best thing I can do for you is take care of myself and be a joy to be around so I can help those who have struggled like I have. Enjoy yourselves friends.
Your words are a reflection of mine. Husband of 30 yrs is sz. Its been very difficult. His latest medication that he has been on is Clozapine 250-300mg at bedtime. He takes his meds regularly and on his own. My agreement with him was take your meds or I leave. He has all the side effects which he dislikes, especially the drooling, but he said it has stopped the voices and hallucinations. He also has a lack of motivation sometimes, memory impairment, and the negative cognitive issues that come with Clozapine. He has been on this medication for 8plus years now. He wants to try and add Sarcosine to his medication regime. Hopefully it will help with the side effects of the Clozapine. I know its difficult and we have to take care of ourselves too. I miss the socialization with others the most. I wish you well.
For me the love I have for my husband is unbelievably fulfilling when heās stable he is the light of my life, real love is rare and special, I deal with the times that his illness takes him by constantly reminding myself that my kind loving amazing husband is still part of this person and where he in control he would never hurt me, I promised him years ago he will never lose me to his illness I will always be there when heās himself again.
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Thank you. I made that promise as well. It gets rough sometimes but our love for one another stands strong. We are both lucky to have such caring, kind, and wonderful husbands. Thank you so much for sharing.
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Sometimes loving her is the most wonderful feeling in the world, other times it is ultimately the most difficult thing in my life.
When she is well and we are just flying through life with no worries I really try to enjoy the moment, remind myself that this is why I love her, because of our closeness, fun, intimacy and I know she is my soulmate.
When she is not well I remind myself that this is not her fault, that she has no control over what is happening in her mind. But to her it is real and so I deal with it as if it is real. But it does not change my love for her. This illness is part of her, and it is a part of why I love her.
Some people want to feel sorry for me (āOh Iām so sorry you have to go through that!ā) What? NO, DO NOT FEEL SORRY FOR ME, OR HER! I tell them that it is no different than if she was paralysed or had some other kind of physical ailment.
Bottom line is I love my partner, she is my soulmate, my life. I could not live without her. When I am not well she takes care of me and vice versa. I guess it just works out that I take care of her more oftenā¦but that is OK too.
Your partner loves you, you are blessed. 
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