I’m looking for any advice, or encouragement regarding what is going on with my family. If you have gone through the same thing I would really love it if you took the time to reply.
Allow me to explain…
Back in March my oldest daughter (age 22) told me that her step dad (my husband) had been raping her from ages 9-19. This came out of nowhere. When I asked her for proof she said that she had none. She had mentioned to me that her step dad “summoned her” through Snap Chat and Snap Chat only-no texts or any other Social Media. She had zero proof of these snaps and said that she never collected any sort of DNA evidence which I found odd, but I was willing to believe her. I asked her if she had ANYTHING that could at least show that she was telling the truth about her allegations and she said she had nothing. I asked her what prompted her to come forward after waiting for so long and she told me that it was a book called Spilled Milk which was written by a young lady who lived in NE Pennsylvania. Her friends had been talking about it on a road trip that she took with them about 6-8 months prior to her telling me about the allegation. She said that the character seemed a lot like her (good grades, kind, hard worker) and that her dad raped her. This also takes place in the same area that we lived for 6 years when she was between the ages of 6-12. She felt that after reading the book she would need to be brave enough to approach me and inform me of everything.
Initially I believed her because she has never given me any reason to think or believe that she is a liar. She was always a very well behaved child, never gave me problems in her teenage years (never really fought me or disrespected me), a straight A student from the 6th through 12th grades, graduated high school with honors and received a full ride scholarship at the school of her choice which also happened to be the number one school in the world in her chosen field. She graduated and now she has a job in her field but of course is the low man on the totem pole. She has been living on her own since she left for college. I don’t mention this to brag, it’s so you understand her basic behavior. She appears normal, she is easy to like/love, articulate, and just an amazing young woman. My husband however is very grouchy, has a problem with everything, very few friends, no long lasting friendships, is not easily liked…so I think you can see why I was so quick to believe her and not question much. I should also add that during her teenage and young adult years she was closer to her step than myself. Told him everything, just had a better relationship with him than me. But I also worked quite a bit so maybe she found him more easily accessible? So this really comes out of nowhere. She never appeared afraid of him or unhappy or uneasy-unless he was in a bad mood. But, no one feels easy around people in a foul mood.
A few months later she went to the police. Since going to the police she now all of a sudden has evidence from Snap Chat that she never had before, and all of a sudden, magically there are text messages that my husband supposedly sent her that are sexual in nature. The only thing is, he is adamant that none of it is true-and yes I believe him. There are other reasons why I believe him, but to keep it short I started noticing inconsistencies in her stories and a few times where her stories had changed entirely. Whenever I called her out on it (three times total) she would freak out and start yelling or screaming and then end up crying really hard. It was kind of bizarre and I couldn’t quite figure out what in the heck was going on because that isn’t normal behavior for her.
Both her bio-dad’s family as well as my family has a history of mental illness. It’s peppered throughout both of our families. Her bio dad has a mood disorder of sorts (bipolar but there’s something else going on too), so did his dad and his paternal grandmother. His mom’s side has depression, mood disorders and personality disorders. My family has all those same illnesses but also two past family members (that I am aware of) with Schizophrenia. It came to me one day that this must be (at least in part) of what she is suffering from. She has not been diagnosed to the best of my knowledge, but after doing much research (mostly on this site) it appears to me as if her behavior mimics that of the stories of family members talking about the young adults in their family suffering from Schizo-affective disorder. In fact, it seems right on the money since the similarities are right on.
I do not think she is being malicious. She truly believes that all of this happened. You can tell when she is telling you about it, but I now know for certain that it is all a fabrication. She continues to work, live on her own, has a boyfriend. So it’s like this is just a new reality in her life.
My family has gone through so much since July when it all came out. Like I mentioned above, I initially believed her so I filled out a restraining order against my husband as well as filed for a divorce-I have not followed through with either due to her change in stories. After the police spent nearly six months investigating, my husband received a charging paper in the mail this week that requests him to appear in court next week to either plead guilty or not guilty. He read a small part of the summary page (charges from the prosecutor) with his attorney yesterday and it is full of falsehoods and garbage.
Here is where it gets VERY interesting. We ordered the book Spilled Milk on Amazon and started reading it. There are MANY similarities between some of the characters and our family (my daughter and myself are much like the main character and her step dad behaves like the author’s father) AS WELL as timelines of when things happened to the character that coincide with my daughter’s abuse timeline. I’m not done with the book yet, but from everything I have read it appears as if my daughter read it and somehow inserted herself as the character and actually believes that this was her life. I suppose it doesn’t help that the character in the book (which is based on actual life events that happened to the author) lived one town over from we were living and was roughly the same age as my daughter was when moving to that area. I haven’t spoken to my daughter since August (she has blocked me on pretty much anything and refuses to respond to email) so we have not had a chance to discuss how she is feeling…
I know that people on this forum have had similar things happen to them involving false allegations made about child sex abuse from their (mostly) Schizo-affective disorder young adult children. My questions are:
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How long does this last? Do they “snap” out of it? When do they “see” what they are doing is wrong? Or do they end up snapping out of it and following through with their allegation because they are so deep in it?
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Does anyone have a family member who suffers from this who has also read a book (or watched a movie) and after reading it somehow believes that this is their life?
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Has anyone had a similar experience involving the police or a District Attorney? How did you navigate your way through this? Do you have any advice you can offer?
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I’m fairly certain that my husband’s attorney will eventually be requesting a mental evaluation, but is that something that can be easily passed or teased? She is a great test taker and not dumb by any means.
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We aren’t ready to tell our younger children what is going on with their sister. The middle child knows about the allegations, but not what we think regarding the mental illness portion of this. Our youngest is 12 and we have kept her in the dark. How do you go about telling your kids about something as big as this? We haven’t even told them that their dad is officially being charged with a heinous crime.
Thank you in advance. I know this was a lot to read, but we are in such an awful situation and are looking for those that have been through this or are currently going through something similar.