So my husband has a fixed illusion where he thinks I’m a prostitute and I’m conspiring to kill him with his sister and brother-in-law, and that we are laughing at him and that we are not ourselves with the devil has taken over us and we do not know what we’re doing. I love my husband. He’s amazing, but it is so difficult to constantly be accused of being a prostitute or a cheater or a piece of shit or that I’m scheming behind his back we’ve been married for 30 years and he’s been the most amazing man in the world, but he went to Iraq Afghanistan, and then Ukraine, and when he came back, he completely changed. Here’s the love of my life and he is a great man. I know that he is suffering and to think that I’m doing all these things are real to him, but it’s very heartbreaking for me. he refuses medication and sometimes he does great and then out of the blue last night when I went over to his sister’s house for dinner when I came back he left. I’ve been dealing with this for five years and I love him and sickness and and health, but I am exhausted
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How incredibly exhausting 
It’s extremely hard to continually have to separate the illness from the person the relationship becomes very clinical.
I just want to say you’re not alone thank you for sharing in this space