My son’s recent diagnosis of schizophrenia obviously has a big impact on the entire famiy, but while my parents are just worried about their Grandson I have developed a feeling of guilt. Could it be that my son is sick because of me?
I have been a single raising Mum from the very beginning. I know very little about my ex boyfriend’s family and their health problems, except that he had ADHD and did drugs. I know that one of my son’s cousins suffers from anxiety. I myself have recurring depression and at times had panic attacs and anxiety. When I was pregnant there was one occasion when I got very drunk, I was already 6 months along and should have known better but I cannot turn back time. I was young and stupid, and several times came close to becoming an alcoholic. Luckily, I was able to snap out of that, alcohol is no longer a temptation for me.
Could it be that it is my fault my son developed schizophrenia? The thought that I could be the cause drives me nuts.