Where do you get the sarcosine?
Glad to hear it. Yes, I also have a younger son. it is a concern. And very wise to use the fish oil and education about dietary issues.
We noticed our younger son was having a hard time concentrating this summer. He was working so hard, then eating lots of pizzas, (casein and wheat) and drinking beer. Beer has gluten - in the hops.
I use a marijuana strain that is higher in CBD and lower in THC (it’'s legal in Oregon) and I do find it helpful. I don’t take fish oil capsules, but I eat baked salmon about 4 times a week. I think it helps.
Did you know that the name “A Drop of Sunshine” is also the title of a short documentary of an Indian woman’s experience with schizophrenia? I googled it to find the vitamin D and saw this movie. I just watched it. It had an impact on me. It grapples with the thoughts I grapple with. I wonder what we (our family) does for our comfort, what we do for his comfort, do we “lessen” him as a young person because of his illness. It affected me.
@Wes_B - I got one that was 20 to 1. They had 100 to 1 but that was 3 times as expensive. Do you know the ration you use?
@Lioness Thanks for letting us know about that movie. I’ll watch it sometime this week.
Thanks so much for the information on the movie. I think, if we are lucky, this illness gives us the chance to look at our relationships with more softness, compassion, and awareness of comforting our loved ones. I am looking forward to understanding more of where you are coming from when I watch the movies.
I am loving the connection that i am finding in this community. Thank you.
I just watched the movie - it was so hopefilled!!! This is the way forward - anyway that will help move our loved ones forward… Thank you for sharing.
yesterday i became worried that my son was having symptoms because he seemed avoidant and ill tempered. I asked if he wanted to smoke some marijuana with me, hoping to get some CBD into him that way and also to join him in his world. He said "no, I’ve quit marijuana."
this is terrific, given how much he was smoking and the varieties he was choosing. I think he was having some breakthrough symptoms that scared him. I asked if he wanted some CBD oil (we only had medium grade). he said no, but I went out anyway and got the best grade I could buy. he took a nap, then got up and was glad to take it when I offered it again and really appreciated the effort and cost.
I am not planning on my son taking the CBD everyday, or 3 times a day, but when needed with other supports, it seems well worth it to me for him to take it when he wants to.
Today he woke up, showered, put on clean clothes and a tie, and left for church again - an hour away. I know he will see old family friends there who have loved him all his life.
It is called “Corazon.” Not sure about the ratios, but here is some info about it…
It’s just so strange isn’t it? I went to google the vitamin and I see a documentary on schizophrenia come up immediately in the results. I didn’t even put schizophrenia in the search. It was such a coincidence I had to watch it. The part that was painful to me was the young lady, Resh, getting frustrated every time a normal behavior for her was feared to be a symptom. At the end where she says how can she learn to swim with the sharks if she is not allowed near the water. That hit a chord with me. I am so terrified of what I could lose - with good reason, believe me - that sometimes I want to just put him in a glass jar and keep him in the house. The trauma changes what is a difficult time of transition - young man into adulthood, into a much more difficult time. My son understands and he is gentle and not resentful, so he keeps his phone nearby and stays in touch with me if he goes out, but I have a very hard time with any independence on his part. Very glad to hear that your son got cleaned up and put quite a bit of effort into church. That spirituality and seeing old friends is so important. That’s great.
Do you live somewhere that you can get medical marijuana?
Thanks for writing. that was syncronisity at its best.
The movie was refreshing. To hear her parents and even dr say they would TRUST her lead. I think this is so important. And it is incredibly scary - to trust that a person who is having such difficulty with reality testing. I wish my son would see a therapist at the very least. The movie highlighted for me how hollowed out our supports are when someone refuses medication and therapy. We caregivers are taking it all on our shoulders.
It is so wonderful that your son lets you in by keeping in connection. That shows a real bond of love and mutually care.
That bond is a vital connection toward health. so many people with this illness do not have one person that they still trust in.
Thanks! Maybe I should just go straight to Carlotte’s web. They are here in CO.
“Today he woke up, showered, put on clean clothes and a tie, and left for church again - an hour away. I know he will see old family friends there who have loved him all his life.”
This is very promising. I hope your son continues to improve!
Yes we live in Massachusetts.
And Lioness, and hereandhere, mom2, and so many other dear ones at this site,
I tried to write yesterday but it didn’t go through. Sunday evening my so came home and was quite delusional. Most of it I had heard before. It was somewhat accusatory but not incredibly angry. And we could talk without it getting out of hand.
I let him know I didn’t have the same memories as he does. I reassured that I will always work towards mutual respect- and to let me know if he experiences me as intrusive.
He calmed- we had tea and he woke Monday in good spirits. Again went boarding on Lake nearby today and our bond continues to be strong.
He talks about difficulties reading and watching movies. We may listen to audible together- that’s my hope.
Marijuana- was the Bain of our families existence since son was 15. But I decided to join him and bond by smoking w him and comparing high CBD strains when possible. I also take only one hit while he goes on and on- and I talk about what it’s like for me and he shares his experience.
But has really stopped doing marijuana on his own for past few days.
Is planning to do music w some friends. Has enthusiasm again but gets very tired.
Thanks for letting me vent and for being out there sharing this wild ride of live, sadness, hope and sometimes joy.
Best wishes - may we all find gratitude where we can.
@presence You are fortunate that your son talks to you and shares what he is going through. My son has the delusions about his upbringing and I like you have told him that I remember things differently than he does. I hope at some time he will talk to me so I can try to be his partner through all this. At the moment he is completely on his own (but living in our home at the same time). By Boarding do you mean paddle boarding?
DianeR- he was using a duct taped tennis racket as a paddle, while sitting on his windsurfing board - without sail rigging. Looked like the Last of the Mohicans. Good thing this was a smallish lake. He was happy.
And the incredibly stories of abuse are back. They contain so many friends and me etc, etc.
I think our only hope of partnering is in finding our own calm. Almost impossible isn’t it? So far the only healthy ways I know of are: meditate regularly, daily workouts, massages, acupuncture and through diet.
This diet for my son is definitely working for me. I steeped the soup with all kinds of herbs and oils. Everyone loved it! The CBD oil helped me today too. Would your son take CBD? My son finally went to try the CBD oil and was much more relaxed and lightened. Can you get some smoothies with oils into him? I have these things with him, or around the same time to try to share the space. How can I share a calmer moment- that’s my mantra.
Another supplement- found out the Ayurvedic herbs contain quite a bit of “Brahmi.” Another neurotrophic for used for anxiety, adhd etc.
Another herb worth checking out.
Hope I don’t sound ditzy. I really was much more strident about expectations, uprightness, “the right way”, but now, as I told my other son who was quite surprised that I took some CBD- “I’ll do anything at this point to be the best mother I can be.”