This is not the most direct post about SZ, but I’m feeling a little low about a situation and I’m looking for answers from all sources. My brother was diagnosed with Undifferentiated Sz at the age of 17. He has always been open about the fact that he has also been through an addiction problem as well. He’s been doing great in managing both his SZ and keeping his temptations at bay. I live with him, I see him everyday and I have seen how hard he’s worked, and what he’s been through.
This is a bit of a diversion; I hope other forum members will please forgive.
Why I’m asking…. I am in college and my English professor LOVES William Burroughs, Irvine Welsh, Hunter S. Thompson,…. basically anyone who portrays the drug culture in a positive light. I’ve been told by this teacher more than once now that I will never be a good writer if I don’t get the stick out of my butt and drop some acid. “Expand you mind, at least have a drink, or at least a joint…… don’t be a goodie two shoe all your life….” I’ve told him my situation, that there is a large swath of addiction and Mental Illness in my family so I didn’t want to “test the buttons” so to speak. He doesn’t believe in mental illness, “There are no such thing as mentally ill people, just people who are put in hospital for seeing the world differently and living differently.” He also argued with me that just because my brother is SZ, doesn’t mean I’ll develop mental illness by smoking a joint. He makes me feel like an idiot about the topic of SZ and drugs. Maybe he’s just joking and I don’t get the joke?
I am feeling a little square and a little too much like a goodie two shoe. My lack of first hand drug use experience never used to bother me before. Our state of Washington just legalized pot. I hold no judgement for anyone who does or doesn’t do drugs. But I am feeling a bit down about this situation. I hate the fact that my brain is asking…. “What’s the harm in just one joint?” Then I think of how much my brother has over come and how hard he has worked to get all the drugs out of his life, and I think, “OH, that’s the harm. Why tempt this fate in the first place.”
What I’m asking for…. There are a lot of articles about marijuana use and SZ. I know that the “genetic predisposition” of SZ isn’t concrete evidence. I never once said I knew much about SZ. My life is just my bother, and I trying to get through our days and make today better then yesterday. I have much more to learn. I know I can’t convince this teacher other wise. Looking for ideas, resources, countering arguments, opinions, and piece of mind.
Thank you for your patience and indulgence.