Everything was amazing for over three years. He showed no symptoms. We had a wonderful little boy. He worked and I was a stay at home mom. Then one day he quit his job because he’d rather kill himself than go.
A few weeks later he tries to remove an eye because he thought he could gain god powers. He claimed it was his hallucinations but when he was in the hospital I went through his phone. He had googled how to remove an eye. Does one having a sz episode have the ability to do the research?
So came the diagnosis. He needs painkillers or he has hallucinations. I have to work an exhaustive job to pay our bills, including his child support. He steals from me. He wont keep the house tidy and he spends most of his time on this website.
I am completely okay with him having a place to vent but how should I feel about the lies he has told on here? He has told lies to one girl in particular to seemingly try to impress her. I don’t even know how to handle myself anymore. I feel so defeated and alone.
I’m giving all I have and its not enough. It doesn’t matter how I feel. I’m just a normie who couldn’t possibly understand but I try so very hard. I need help too but I have no one.