My mother was recently diagnosed with sz. Throughout my childhood, she was always difficult mood-wise and was frequently paranoid, experiencing both delusions and hallucinations.
Just before Christmas, she had a real psychotic break - believed that God was speaking through her and a lot of other grandiose ideas. These soon became paranoid and she believed she was victim of demonic possession. After hospitalising her (I am her eldest child, she has no partner), she was put on meds and improved minimally before being discharged (she just hid all of her symptoms, ditching the meds as soon as she was out).
Every night, unless my grandmother sleeps with her, she will bang walls, throw things and shout angrily, I imagine at whatever she is hearing/seeing.
It is very, very hard. I no longer recognise her. She had her moments whilst I was growing up, but never did it consume her and erode her very being. I sleep with a locked door and find myself increasingly desperate to move out of the home because I just cannot cope. I suffer from my own mental health issues, am currently out of work and education because I cannot seem to get on with anything with her being so sick. Can anyone else identify or give some advice?