so my sister is doing better. I have written about her before, she is a doctor and this is her first relapse after her first episode five years ago.
its hard to treat a patient who is also a doctor. she is aware enough to have taken a leave of absence from her hospital, she knows there is something wrong and she is unfit to be practicing (this happened last time too).
she is recovering but she recently decided to cut down on her meds on her own because she was getting tremors. she also changed her medication on her own. ever since she has done that her delusions are creeping up on her again. she still has to see her doctor soon and i will inform the doctor what meds she is taking now but the way she is interacting with my parents is different from before. She has always held resentment towards my parents for various reasons (mostly justified reasons), and they are her care givers but the way she is lashing out on them now is different from before. she is someone who is extremely polite in her language, she is now using extremely disturbing language, she is using such profane words that it seems like it is another personality that has taken over.
even at the height of her delusions before, her vocabulary was hers. this time around it isn’t. is it something that a SZ person goes through and we are experiencing it for the first time, or is it past trauma that is making her this angry? because i feel she keeps vacillating between her delusional self and her lucid self. The thing i can’t understand is that when she is lashing out at my parents and reminding them of their mistakes, she sounds lucid to me. its just unsettling to hear her use such harsh and profane language. How do i differentiate between whats real and whats not. Because i dont want to constantly treat her like a patient, she makes so much sense!
she is hurt and maybe now she is speaking about things from the past, but then there are also delusions. i just want to help her. please advice.