I created an acct in Oct 2015 and had a topic relating to my husband saying for me to leave; us divorce. Well I of course stayed because I know he is sick. But he has said it 2 or 3 more times since then. He says this is his house, not mine. (both names on deed). He says I can leave and says it like its nothing. No hurt, like he never had feelings for me and said we just grew apart. Well I still stay. I have told him it hurts my feelings but he said he was not being mean when he says it. Well mean or not when saying it, it hurts. He also says rude things. We was laying in bed one morning, I put my arm around his waist. He says please remove your arm. I said “why, I can’t touch you”. He said “no”. I said “well i thought thats what couples do”. He said “we are not a couple”.
Basically I have had months and months that if I even touch him he jumps and moves. Tells me don’t touch him. But yet all day long he is so nice. I just can’t touch or have any personal contact, cant say I love you, cant kiss, cant do anything.
Other rude behavior is his mom was going to come in to town, he calls and tells her he don’t want company to not come. I tell him thats mean and hurtful. He said only in my view. He was not mean at all.
So I have started saying I love you to him even though I will never get a response. I try to listen to him or spend time watching tv where used to i would b in my room all night after work. So with this I have had no good come from it.
What should I do. Leave, Stay, what? I can’t keep being hurt. I can’t be upset 4 out of 7 days. And the days I am not upset is because I have not attempted to touch him and just leave the situation be. I don’t think about it at all. Other days I want to cry.