Other family members from the UK have told us how much better your services are than ours.
I think the hardest part for many of us is releasing our children to their journey. We know what a struggle it is for parents whose children do not suffer from mental illness. Our children’s illness seems to cry out for our help and often they just want to hande it on their own.
Not being able to help is much harder on me emotionally.
Don’t confuse your son’s feelings toward you with the effect the illness has on him. I know its hard, but try to hang onto that previous closeness for your own comfort - but you can’t ask it from him. From what you have described, he might have a long slow recovery. NAMI always tells us to think in terms of years, not days or months.