I haven’t been on here in a while because everything had been going really great since my son got on meds last year. As some of you may remember my son attacked me last year. The counselor he has been seeing keeps changing his diagnosis. First he said schizophreniform then just plain psychological break down. First I do not understand why a counselor and not a psychologist or psychiatrist is diagnosing him. Anyway we are in the middle of another break. He was talking out of his head again Saturday night. Not making any since and not comprehending instructions and was in a manic state. Sunday he called to apologize and say he was just tired and needed sleep. Well that’s all good, except he had the same exact behavior including the apology and need sleep excuse last year 2 days before he attacked. He called yesterday to say that he is tired of my attitude and he thinks it is best if we don’t see or talk to each other again. That he is not ill and does not need meds (he says he is still taking them though). I know this is the illness talking but it doesn’t hurt any less knowing that. I called his so called councilor yesterday and he said he did not need to come in right away and to keep his appointment for next week. He also said if he acts like this again to call the crisis intervention team. Then he really ticked me off and use the “drugs” word. I am tired of this word. My son does not do drugs. I am a former addict (clean 14 years now) and I am sure I would know if he was using. The counselor even said they tested him last year when he started treatment and he was clean. I told him to test again and he is still clean. He did have some issues in his life last week that caused stress that I think brought on this episode. I have worked really hard at getting over my PTSD in the last year and we have finally been able to be around each other without anyone around; which I could not do for at least 10 months. Now I am back to square one and scared to be around him by myself again. I am at a loss as I have no one else to help me deal with this. I live alone and my only other child is 1,000 miles away. Why can they not diagnosis this for what it is: Schizophrenia?
I am thankful for this web site as it has been of great help to me these last few months since I found it. Thanks for reading I just needed to vent.