So I’ve known this person for more than a year now and we are both from the UK. They live in England while I live in Scotland so we only text and call.
For aslong as I’ve known her she has had these highs and lows. Every couple of weeks she would be high and ecstatic and manic and then low depressed and unmotivated. Which I first thought was a sign of bipolar disorder.
But in recent months she’s acted different, she’s still had the highs and lows but at night she would wake up from her sleep in the middle of the night (she has a really hard time sleeping, waking up multiple times a night from nightmares, when she’s low of course) and tell me all these delusional things. One night she couldn’t sleep at all because she was convinced that there was a camera outside looking at her. She would be sending me videos of a bush with a light behind it and be telling me that it was someone standing there, recording her behind the bush.
On multiple occasions she’s been extremely paranoid like this. She’s also heard real banging on the wall which I can confirm is real because she send me a video with sound, but then went on to tell me that it was something in the closet making it. A Demon or entity.
Other things she’s done in the middle of the night is, tell me that there are people out to get her. She’s told me before in confidence that our food gets poisoned aswell as other things. But it always goes back to, these people or sometimes even Demons or entitys that are out to get her.
Today she told me that she’s been having these flashes of images, one of a crow standing. The other of a cat hanging off a ledge to more morbid things like someone getting suffocated by a pillow or someone’s face being mutilated. She also told me that she wasn’t allowed to tell anyone these things or bad things would happen. She was semi convinced that if she told people, something would happen to someone on a train and someone in her family would kill her. She said that when she went to bed these images kept happening and she panicked. She describes the feeling as things getting too loud.
She also said that her head was like In a way telling her to distance herself from people, in her words she said “when the thoughts have been happening the past few days, they want me to go. To get hurt. And it makes me scared”, she was ready to never talk to me again today but I convinced her to stay.
There are a million more examples I could give but it’s hard to remember everything, a switch sort of flicked in my head today when she told me about the images in her head. She has been smoking weed recently which can Increase the chances of schizophrenia in people already high risk.(according to my friend) so I told her to stop immediatly and not distance herself from her friends. I also told her to tell me everything she experiences from now on. She trusts me more than anyone with these things because I’ve been the person supporting her with her lows for the past year. What really concerns me is the fact that when she goes back to a high. Everything just disappears. Her trouble sleeping is fixed, her paranoia, delusions, hallucinations. Everything.
I really need some help and advice from you folk, if there is anywhere you guys would reccomend in the Essex area or just any advice in general I would really appreciate it. Also please ask questions if it helps you understand better, I’ll answer the best I can.