Well no not guilty but just sad, bad whatever, My son has the depot of zuclopenthixol every two weeks now, he was on paliperidone for a year, didnt see too much progress so was changed to zuclopenthixol about 8 weeks ago. Its an older type antipyscotic and Im a bit concerned now. He still at times is having his , what I call fears, worries about thinking he is going to be killed, kidnapped etc, he has had these since he started on the first lot of as. He is slower on these, more sedated, he has 200mg every two weeks. he wasnt med compliant and is on a community treatment order which was renewed a few weeks ago for this time “up” to one year.
He has side effect of walking around the house, the room, anywhere, but if he is distracted or focused on something he doesnt do it.
It pains me to see no real improvement, its really making me worry and wonder if it has to be like this, sorry I know that doesnt make sense.
His CPN is coming to see us tomorrow and I know i will need to bring this to her attention. I just feel so sad at times for him. He is pale, slow , and seems to have so many worries, I have no idea what to compare it with though? are meds to cause this? he is a shadow of himself, as in so subdued, but at the weekend he imitated me eating something, ok it was a bit noisy as I couldnt help it then he said "you were the one that caused this by calling the crisis team, mocking me for it. Then he went to the soccer game then came home all forgotten.
His grandparents visited at the weekend and stayed three nights with us, he expressed his worry to his gran, then at night told her he loved her and sat with his arms round her.
Its sad all this isnt it. He is 25 living like a 75 year old.
Its the walking around then ransoming will hit out at the furniture with his foot, I’ve noticed too that he walks close to the perimeter of something, like if its the garden he will walk close to the fence and in the house its near the walls? anyone notice similar stuff? thank you ,