Life Has A Way Of Biting us.
I had posted several post about my son illness in the past 3 years.
he was non-compliant on medicine for long time and he is still do not have enough insight about his illness but he is safe and doing better.
he has been doing better in the past year and taking Invega-shot and Clozaril.
he was much better 2 months ago prior to moving to last facility.
He is in California. Recently het got with a fight with another patient at the facility and I found out that he was not given the recommended dose of medicine set by the doctor from prior hospital
He is now back in county Hospital and hopefully they will get him stable again.
I have been visiting him three times a year but he still not nice to me because he thinks I am the reason of him being conserved and locked in facility.
I am getting ready to go visit him again next month.
I sold a real estate property in Virginia on the hope that I will move to California soon so I can get him out of the Facility and care for him myself.
things are not moving fast as I want!!
Started looking for work in California couple months ago and not luck yet.
I am still working at my current job in the Mid west and I am about 3 years away from my full retirement.
I am just missing my son a lot and I wish I could have been there for him on his Birthday yesterday. I could not get through the phone system at the hospital to even wish him Happy Birthday and hear his voice.
he is restricted from visitation right now and the family friend left him a piece of cup cake with birthday wish and he could not see him.
What a life, another year without being able to celebrate my Son’s birthday with him.
I want to be part of his life and yet I still have to keep earning to save enough money to buy a home in CA.
California is expensive and I know I have to wait for the right time to Move.
I am counting the days since I am closer to my full retirement and hope to be able to get a decent retirement income at that time!
in the mean time, I am missing out being close to my son… Frustrated and in Pain at time.
I wished I could had drink alcohol last night to reduce my agony and pain.
will keep praying about my Situation.
Just venting out my frustration…