Now that I am here I am not even sure how to begin my story. I have spent the last 6 months researching mental illness on the web and have come to the conclusion that my ‘roommate’ is likely schizophrenic. You may ask ‘why not discuss it with her’…it is because even though she has been hospitalized twice for it she insists both times were a conspiracy and she is fine. We have become very good friends.
I have come to the point where I think her behavior is beginning to affect me mentally in multiple ways…I need some understanding as to how to deal with it.
In general she is a fun person…pretty easy to get along with and with all that is going on she is my very best friend. We spend alot of time together doing various things and so on…in fact as silly as it sounds…it is pretty much like we are married minus sex and a marriage license.
We began living together about 6 months ago. Her living arrangements were abusive and according to her she was being drugged and raped on a regular basis by her ‘roommate’ at the time. So me being someone naive and wanting to help offered that she could stay with me. She basically had nowhere to go…so her choices were either getting raped or being homeless.
The reasons I think she is schizophrenic are as follows:
She has an intense paranoia that there are various government and non-government entities after her. She regularly talks about ways that the government watches and controls us. She believes in the Illuminati controlling the world and so on.
She believes there are aliens and UFOs under the arctic circles. She has seen UFOs and aliens. The other night she showed me scars over her pubic bone where aliens had harvested eggs from her.
She swears that she regularly sees 3 ‘beings’ in my house and is able to describe them. I know she sees other things but does not tell me as it upsets me.
I have found out that she at one time practiced witchcraft primarily to ‘defend herself against other witches’. She believes that my ex-wife and her friends are witches and have portals into my house through which they affect our lives. She now claims to be very religious and ‘Walks with Jesus’ and reads the bible a lot.
She has said that at 2 times in her life her house has been broken into but cannot say who it was and terrorized her…I suspect that both times it was for a forced hospitalization.
She is a loner and has no real friends but she is very charming when meeting people and seems to do well socially. I suspect though that this does not last long for her until things get odd and she backs off.
She has really no motivation to better her life. She has gone as many as 6 days without a bath and in the same clothes. She has issues doing basic household chores. She plans to do many things that never materialize. Her boxes of possessions have been sitting in my living room for the last 6 months exactly as they arrived except for those containing clothes. Sometimes she will sleep for 30-40 hours straight.
She has plans to buy a Winnebago and travel the country picking up odd jobs for money. I have no doubt that if she does this she will soon be homeless and likely run into some sort of trouble.
She had a terrible childhood from age 4 till the present…she is now 41. She was abused as a child, divorced her parents at 16, lived on the street for some time, dealt drugs to supplement her income from many many different jobs. Been abused by whatever man was with her at the time and much more.
When she drinks I cannot stop her…she drinks to the point of no return and then we get into a conversation where her house was broken into and something happened and they are looking for her and all that. It is impossible to break her out of the conversation…she stares straight ahead and talks endlessly about it without detail.
There is more that I cannot remember at the moment. But the bottom line is that at the present she is in a stable and loving environment. From what I can tell she has never been safer than she is now.
The thing is that all this is affecting me emotionally and I am getting worse. I need to understand what is going on, how to deal with it and how to help her.