I’m diagnosed with schizophrenia, and have gone through a lot trying to rebuild my life.
Now I’m working, volunteering, and returning back to the University in the fall to study psychology and Spanish, double major. When I was first diagnosed I assumed there was a conspiracy to have me killed, and everyone was involved, except for my mother and father. They’re seperated, but both have provided support in various ways. I kept my thoughts mostly to myself, but there were times when I would explode with rants about how people were stalking me online, and people on the street were involved in a conspiracy to “hurt” me, have me killed etc. This is not uncommon.
I believe it’s just a process to get on the right meds, and to figure out what works, and does not. I’ve probably been on 30 cocktails of meds until I finally pulled through. I am not suggesting it will take more or less time to get things stabilized. You can probably expect hospitalizations, med changes, and other forms of therapy to regain his power back in life. It’s a journey, and not everyone gets better. Therapist and Doctors can be a tricky path to go down, and not all appear to be helpful.
The brain forms synapsis, where these thoughts can become obsessive and “hard” wired after you keep revisiting the same delusions over and over. It becomes impossible for the person to think about anything else, the meds I believe both help and hinder in recovering from this. When the meds don’t seem to help it’s easy to stop taking them. Again, a lot of people in recovery deal with this, stopping meds, until the psychosis returns, returning to the same delusions they are fixated on, back on a new med, and the circle begins again. Often people don’t think they are sick, and there is some logic to the argument, taking meds has horrible side effects, and sometimes they seem not to work, no changes in thought, just a numbing feeling that makes the thoughts seem less intense.
It’s a horrible illness, that can seem manufactured by the treatment, delusions, and “help” that you seek. I try to remind myself that people are trying to do the right thing to help. It doesn’t always produce positive results or seem to help. Many of the professionals tend to refer to books, past cases, and intuition to try to help. But we all deal with things differently, so I can’t be one to give much advice on how to move forward.
My support system, mom and dad, friends (the ones I have left), and various doctors and therapist have all done their part in helping me navigate a broken system, for a long time. It hasn’t been easy, but they’ve all been there, and I’m grateful for their help.
Here are some things to talk about, and keep in mind. Remind them that thoughts are not some incredible phenomenon, there are 7.5 billion people, and everyone has thoughts. Let them in and out, trying to silence them, and paradoxically, giving them power by thinking about them just induces the suffering. Let them come in and let them leave. There is a path to reduce, and ultimately, end the suffering. What we go through is not all that special, 1% of the population (possible more) are afflicted by the illness. Society has no tolerance for violence, inflicted on others or the self, mistakes are made, but sometimes we need to be reminded of this, as we’re all in this together, so focus on helping yourself and others.