(Excuse the bad english here, I am from Sweden)
I couldn’t find any forums directed specifically to people living with someone suffering from a schizoaffective disorder (or variations thereof).
Is it possible to get some “afterlife” understanding of what I actually went through giving up my whole life to be there for this helpless soul and more importantly what she has been through?
In my country I was never allowed to ask her psychiatrists about her condition without her consent. Since she was always in either a psychotic, schizofrenic, manic or violent state that obviously never happened.
Shouldn’t someone in that state be considered a child, so the person living with her gets to talk to the professionals to more fully understand how I in everyday life can help her in her enormously different states and also how I could have handled myself not to break down (because I almost felt I got half of her delusions in the end because of sleep depravation, I was too scared to fall asleep until she did, and she never did)
Two years later after she got better and chose to continue life on her own I still have nightmares and anxiety-attacks, but thankfully she got the right kind of medication in the end that did not turn her into a wastebasket. She is almost a “normally” happy young woman, like out of a bubble and I am so greatful that she has come to that place, even though I know this disorder can’t be cured.
But I never got any help through this because I still do not understand what SHE goes and has gone through and I don’t want to bring her back to that by trying to ask her. I know that would just harm her.
Why cant close ones get help during these long months the treatments go on as well?