Thank you for your post.
It means a lot.
I’m very much verging on hopeless, but your point about my mum getting less able to care gives me some energy back.
I know that there is a point where it is so bad that hospital is the only way, I think we have been past that point many times on and off
With Extreme self injury, substance abuse, nearly daily rages for years with alcoholism, suicidal thoughts and plans, getting lost on boggy moorland etc
All schizophrenia sufferers seem to be able to put on a good show until they can’t to doctors
Maybe it can get worse… thinking of all I have seen in our middle sister and my own illnesses, yes there is room for more.
Your words that my mum will not be able to care forever has really hit me,
Mum was hit by a car 2 years ago and her foot almost came off, she has screws and plates, but also a small energetic dog…so she is always out in the park for hours.
Mum has asked for help with heavy things… getting things into the house…
She has recently lost weight, living in a flat with my extremely bulimic sister, and says the loss in weight is good for her foot.
She was then mistreated by 2 nurses and injured her ribs in a fall, then became immobile again and had the whole dvt and pulmonary embolism thing
She doesn’t always register if I speak to her, I think hearing less lately
She drives with one operated on eye and one with cataract still present.
She has smoked moderately all her life.
I was her only support… or other than me, before the virus there was a group of peers playing cards.none of these people were close or just as needy
I moved with my husband’s work to an hour away a year ago
Starting to think I should not have left her