I have just had a very bad night. I called the ambulance on my sister in her new place where she is in a shared house - to attempt to get personal space, independence, a bit of etc. etc. after living at my mum’s for two years, suicidal and in a different city and having a breakdown. She’s not schizophrenic, but i am and our sister was.
I have just made things harder for her - more shameful - more difficult and shaming. I hope that her excuse to her house mates that i call the ambulance every ten minutes on her and that i am the crazy one will help.
She has been having a breakdown suicidal depression and alcoholism for 2 years (alcoholic much longer.)
She is on her own all the time and unreachable in conversation. Pathetically i have Aspergers as well as sz so i have even more difficulty there. I literally struggle with my social skills and she has saved my life in the past by calling an ambulance for me
previously have found her unrousable after sleeping pills which cause amnesia through the internet, mixed with alcohol,
Found her room yesterday full of blood tissues from extreme self injury and empty bottles of wine everywhere
she has no friends, (one in london four hours away) no work / hobbies seem to only include exercising and dieting while drunk
she has recently been going on a maple syrup cayenne pepper and lemon juice fast… proving she is taking less good care of herself (protein needs / vitamins / veg - normally taken care of by low carb healthy apart from drink living
She’s 37 and i feel like i want to just go and sit with her but she doesn’t want me - or when i thought she didn’t want me and did - i wasn’t there
I could have gone swimming with her a lot at one point but i got so involved with myself - i had to treat a mole on my face with chemo cream and wasn’t allowed to swim
everything from not believing her about recovered abuse memories, our father and a pedophile ring - when she remembered she was talking about past lives and seven blond children being burned in a barn etc.
I’ve just done nothing I’m so incompotent.
how do i help her?