As many of the people on this post WELL know by know, I am undifferentiated SZ, and I live in my own place with my 17 year old kid sis as she starts college. She the youngest of the 5 of us and the only girl. Yep, four of us older brothers to deal with.
Her life is in transition and she’s a very smart cookie. I’m on back on meds that have worked for me and I can feel myself calming down a little more every time I wake up. But I am a little concerned at how drugs has sort of become a center of focus lately. First the kid sis was getting involved with a heroin user to try and save him. He’s still in hospital. She has a teacher who is IN LOVE with Timothy Leary and thinks drugs should be encouraged. (and has in fact been encouraging them) Our brother John is up and down in his fight with addiction and has actually been telling the kid sis that she should get high with him or just have a few drinks with him. He does take her around as a designated driver. (she adores our brother John and she does take his opinion into consideration) Side story: He actually told the kid if she kept staying sober, soon they would have nothing in common. That really made me angry.
Sometimes, her friends come over and I can smell the pot on them, or just the spaced out smile and the big eyes, … I’ve done enough XTC to know when someone is rolling. She’s been asking questions like, “Is it really that addictive?” then she assures me she would never, plus her job does drug test and I’ve found nothing in her room, car or anywhere else. No odd behavior, no drop in grades. But tis’ the edging in of the curiosity that is making me a bit nervous. I don’t want to come off as a paranoid, over reactionary like I have in the past. But I am getting a bit worried. She’s a strong kid, but strength can only go so far. The strongest trees do eventually bend under constant pushing from the wind.
She has seen the results, read the books, knows the stats, knows the psycho babble, but that doesn’t seem to kill the curious questions. Am I being paranoid again, or might there be something there? How does any parent go about really starting this conversation with their younger loved ones. All of us boys have been messed up in the head one way or another. Despite some of her own battles, she’s the most normal of us all. I wish there was something I could do. Our parents are very amazing and savvy people, but they are helping three out of 5 kids right now. They keep telling me they have faith in her decisions. But for as smart as she is, She is only 17.