Im sorry to bother again- Im trying so hard to wrap my head around this .
Ive wrote before about my BF having schizophrenia paranoia diagnosis- he was facilitated - he threw the meds away after a week- and he spiraled. He is completely denying being sick (sz) his horrible delusions returned and I told him he needed to get bk on Abilify- he ended it.
Forward a year: ive seen him a few times - with hopes things were going to go back to amazing and hed be okay- WRONG. He was paranoid- said everything had to be simple - everyone at his job hates him- He still is in belief his delusion was real .
He seemed almost narcissistic after a month. It was all about him- never about what i wanted. Hed cancel dates we planned because his parents wanted him to go with them …I was kind & understanding.
Never texted or called me over Christmas. Then we planned a date - he texted me that day (i was working) and because i didnt respond immediately his next text said " im done with rhis relationship " ive attempted to call him- text him - email him explaining i was at work - he wont text me back or anything. Its been a week now.
I know i deserved to be treated better but i tried so hard to keep him happy and be understanding.
What should i expect? Will he ever come out of this phycosis spiral? I guess im stupid. I just dont understand.
I’m sorry, you are right that dealing with your expectations is your priority. You are not stupid, but those statements show that you might be having trouble understanding the nature of schizophrenia. Schizophrenia is a severe brain disorder that does not go away.
Their delusions are real to them and the illness can make them incapable of understanding they are ill with a brain disorder.
Choosing to be in a relationship with someone who has these struggles is a challenge, and it will always be a challenge.
Do what is good for you, if he is not going to stay on his meds, nothing changes…
Even if he does, it still may not change the fixed delusion. You can employ the LEAP method, provide as much support as he allows, and be extremely patient.
The big question is: What do I really want out of life (family, kids, supportive partner) and am I prepared to live without these things in order to try to be a partner to this person?
I’m not sure what you want out of a relationship that will always be fraught with difficulties- schizophrenia is not curable. You didn’t cause it nor can you control it-your BF broke up with you maybe it’s okay if you let the relationship go. Focus on taking care of yourself and figure out what you want in your life.
Thank you so much for the response. I am trying so hard to understand. I speak to my therapist weekly (i actually feel shes sick of hesring about it) and i read forums and ask questions ( as per i did on here) It is extremely difficult for me to grasp what HE is experiencing. His parents let him live with them like hes healthy & not needing help . They turned it all against me. They all.went through the hospitalization with me. The dad was put on Abilify while my bf was the hospital. I feel sad for my bf (or ex bf now ) because his parents (whom he trusts) are feeding to him that hes healthy & doesn’t need medication & doesn’t have schizophrenia. It makes me sad for him. I guess i dont know what to expect. This is the longest hes gone not responding to my reachjng out. Its just ALOT. I know i need to let go. 
Thank you again kindly 