Hello! I have posted a topic on here about a month ago about my boyfriend. He hasn’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia but everyone had told me on this forum to get him help and was very kind and supportive. I have a question/dilema:
My boyfriend decided on his own to stop smoking weed because it was making him very paranoid and obsessive over negative thoughts - most about me and the people in our town - and he would yell at me every night, basically wanting to break up because I either “didn’t love him” or was “cheating” in some form. He even visited me at work to see if I was having an orgy there because he thought I snuck off to my mother’s house to have an orgy with her friends. Then I came home one night from work and he basically demanded - screaming - that I pull down my pants, because he wanted to catch me cheating. It was very humiliating, creepy and disgusting to me.
The next night he said he would not smoke weed because he only smoked it to be relaxed - but he wasn’t. He hated the thoughts.
We were super happy and basically like a normal, romantic, cute, happy couple for about a month or so. It was amazing. He had random thoughts or concerns or schizophrenic-type delusions and talked about his world he created etc. but nothing of the same magnitude at all. Just a quirky guy that thought in a strange manner, but our relationship wasn’t being harmed or abused at all.
Then yesterday he got all pissed off and said he had given me too much power. So he said he was going to try smoking weed again. Of course I was devastated… I guess it’ll never end. I already figured it was too good to be true, but I thought he’d see how happy we were and see the good it was doing.
He appeared okay when I came back from work. He didn’t seem upset or paranoid in any way after smoking. The one idiotic part of this is that he has an interview today (so probably a drug test, too) so what a stupid day to choose to smoke again…
So am I overreacting about the weed?
Will he slowly become affected by the weed and become like he was before?
Is the weed not as responsible for his thoughts as I once believed it to be?
Should I let him smoke?
He kept trying to say that I was trying to “make him scared of weed” and tell him that “schizophrenia is bad.” Those are two things I never said. But…
SHOULD he be “afraid” of weed?
He feels he has complete control of his mind now and won’t think bad things while smoking. I tried to explain to him that the only reason he feels better is BECAUSE he’s not smoking. Now I basically feel trapped between concern and anger. He seems okay this time. But will it slowly bring him back into a downward spirol?